Bad Mojo, Bad

Level 2 recital last night. I have been better. The last few weeks I just haven't felt the same drive while in class. My pole at home is lots of fun, but I have practiced to the point of injuries. Now I just feel "low and slow," as my grandmother would say. Just don't feel like rocking out.

This is difficult for me, and hopefully will turn around in the near future. I am so competitive that while I absolutely ADORE watching my classmates get stronger and better, I still want that edge. I don't have it. Boo hoo.

Maybe this has something to do with the fact that I now seem to be successful at work. For a while there, I was so depressed and down-trodden. Dancing was my outlet. My source of joy and confidence. My release. Maybe I don't need it as much now?

Maybe I am over-thinking this and just need a break long enough for my muscles to heal? Yeah...let's go with that.

If I can put in the time and effort (not to mention $$$), I think I would really like to be an instructor. My favorite activities thus far were teaching American Colonial history at the American Village and training orientation counselors at Auburn. I love turning people on to what excites me. Just puts a big ol' smile on my face. Watching my classmates dance does the same thing.

Just have to get my mojo back first...

To-Do List

WOO HOO! My pole finally arrived yesterday (FedEx Home Delivery doesn't deliver on Mondays?), and BF was kind enough to install it last night.

I like it, but it will take some getting used to. BF's upstairs junk room is not exactly the pole studio, and 8 feet of pole definitely isn't 16 feet. I need mirrors, forgiving lighting, some sort of stereo equipment. I did finally get to dance for just a minute while the BF ran to the grocery store, though, which is exactly what I wanted out of a home pole.

I can dance full-out for as long as I want to. Well, as long as I can. It honestly isn't very long. By the time I reach the improv section of the Level 2 recital routine, I am too tired to do anything fancy. Must work on endurance.

Also, must work on not becoming a YouTube gag reel in the making. I got a little over-excited last night and attempted to slide down upside-down. Made it about 2 feet gracefully, fell the rest of the way.

Must save up for floor mats so I don't kill myself.

Lil Minx

Working 55-60 weeks, started studying for my last section of the CPA exam. Needless to say, I haven't been dancing as much as I would like to/need to. Sooooo.....I ordered my own! Can't wait! Everything I read leans toward Lil Minx or X Pole, and the Lil Minx is cheaper.

I should post some photos when I finally have everything set.